hmm what's up guys?
as a new college girl, i would say it's quite tiring. i thought when I passed my spm it would've been freedom all the time like "no school , no uniforms , WE'RE FREE" lol well now I guess it's just a dream.
maybe there's no uniforms, but we couldn't run from those we called "HOMEWORKS". Oh yeah in college it would've been different, it called "ASSIGNMENTS" hahah isn't it the same thing?
Faithfully, ever since I entered A level, my heart's pounding everytime I wanted to enter classroom. ESPECIALLY ECONS. I found it was like a nightmare to me. Ms Merin is good, she's pretty and young and talented, to me she's like my encyclopedia. she knows everything about economics. and as a lecturer, she always wanted to help her students to achieve their goal to get an A for economics. well every lecturer wants their students to suceed. None of them wants us to fail duhh.
but something haunts me, i'm afraid to talk. i'm afraid to ask. im afraid that everyone would laugh at me. as in her class, Ms. Merin's class, she would've made us talk, or explain everything she taught. and i have a huge weakness on that part. i really don't know how i'm going to deal with all these.
maybe bcs im a girl from a total malay school, which last time i didn't really speak english and now what? im entering a college tht everyone speaks in english like 24/7. it's really a new thing to me. last time it's really a nightmare knowing tht I'm only a malay girl while the rest are all chinese. i've never been in that situation before thts why I didn't know how to handle it. but now i know how to deal with it. it's only my fear of economics class left tht made me feel something is uncomplete.
why do i hve to take economics while my desire is only for accountings? why people force me to do A level while I really don't want to do it? Sighh if i ask my mom, she would answer it was my choice. I was the one who chose to take it before. Haaiihh I guess thts my wrong. I'm now facing something that I don't know how to handle it. I really depressed now.
Wish that someone could know.
Hmmm maybe i really have to force myself now. however, things would've been decided this way. well my mom doesn't wanna listen, friends don't really help me much, lectures are lecturers they are all doing their best way to help. while me having the same prob everyday. guess i hve to make an effort cause in any circumstances, life still have to go on. no matter what's awaiting us in the future.
let's fight for what we want! Straight A's! Not sure whether im capable of achieving tht. bt I'll try my best! :D
oh yeah, i found one blog that really grabbed my heart. the blogger is a girl and she really has that good english. i hope u never stop blogging. i like reading it. oops, like i already POP-ed my own secret now. lol. Gtg, stay tuned!
