Confused.

There's a time when we feel like giving up after trying really hard to make things to be like it used to and start to move on. but there's still something hold you from doing it. You never wanted to hurt people's feelings especially not ur loved ones. but then, that special person now starting to realize that he has lost someone that mean to much in his life and starting to beg to never let him go. You're confused, you're in mess. You don't know what to do, because you still love him. Part of you want to get back with him and hoping he'd change and show some respect with ur decision, but part of you still wanting to let go because you've given him so many chances to fix it but he never appreciates. You just want happiness, you just want to be with someone that cares about you, that can't live without you even a sec. You want that, and u know u can't get it from him. Not anymore.

Suddenly you thought that maybe by giving this last chance, he will turn out to be better and maybe he realized that he did something awful that made you choose to runaway from him. How do feel when all ur hopes and thoughts are not happening? where u thought he could notice u as much as he noticed u before, and u thought he learnt from his mistakes but then unfortunately your thoughts are completely wrong.

Your heart is breaking again.

Cry. You just cry as much as you want because u feel the pain again. The pain that u thought u would never feel it again. You trusted him. You trusted his words, because he was the one tht u've been counting on before.. but now his words mean nothing to you. You never have intention to make him hurt, to make him pay for it. but deep down u know, by moving on and forgetting him are the best choices. You don't even know where do u stand in his life now. You feel so fragile.

But what should u do? Should u keep crying and keep hoping. Or just start over and have a new life without him? But u know u love him so much. Your heart hurts. All u can think is just how to fix this and that. but why are u doing it alone? Where is he? Once again, he's not there..

"Then why are u still with him?" How easy people can ask u that, but you know they were right. It's just you don't have the ability to answer it.

You're confused. You don't know what to feel. You don't know what is going on between u and him now. You're not sure whether this is the love that u want, whether he's the guy or not. You're not sure whether the love still exist. You just need answers..